The Creator's Den

Got 2 new stories in my head that I need to write down as quickly as possible, one will be a nice adaption of an chatconversation that went on for like 3 months about life, death and all the things in between. The other is more one scene that I wanna build up to something.

Going north to work with couple of producer students, teach them couple of things that they can use when they start working in a year or so, first trip of atleast 2 this fall.

Got new printer at work yesterday, took me all day to build it, today will be installing and test it out, making a canvas on some old pic I have. Oh got shitloads written down yesterday to, when you drown in misery it's quite easy.

Ye, somwhat back now, summer is gone, time to start living again, time to let shit flow inside the creative side of my mind again.
Continue with the scripts or rather I started earlier today, 11 new fresh pages written, timeconsuming as hell since it wasn't dark outside when I started writing but what the hell?
Now I only need a new playlist that can set the mood for the ending of the story.

Nightlife is on, more then usual, with remarkable differences in the obvious ways I use to go on. I don't really know where it comes from or where it's going, somewhat I like it, somewhat I don't, just itching to get out of here...like far far fucking away.

Feeling better finally, but only a bit, will be couple of days until back to normal, thank god I decided to stay at home or I would've been not so nice, rather the topic.

Goddamn detox never ending story, can't really think at the moment so no creativity flow is going on, but got hammer'd on wine which was a long long time ago, use to boost the creative side with that when I was younger, might try it out again since I don't have any skotch at home right now.
Saw a great new tv-show the other day or an adaption of a british one, Shameless, W.H Macy going nuts as an alcoholic with 6-7 kids

Detox from most things like snus, skola, people and other unhealthy things. Since im in the middle of the detox my brain ain't working properly hence no updating possible, just nagging about in my apartment, doing weird stuff I never do otherwise, oh well, happy thoughts, drinking tea (<- I never do that)

Got one page down today, did some other things that took away my creative side, but have some ideas now, it's a good thing, been to much dialogue in the end.

A lot of dialogue today, two pages done on addiction script, got some nice lines in, not the ones I mentioned earlier but still some lines that will bring the story forward.

I've came up with silly beautiful lines last couple of days, almost makes me want to write a beautiful script but missing some ideas to fully develop one, can't implement them in any of my working projects, that kind of suck to be honest.

At the moment, working on a lyric, ain't perfect yet but so far I've came up with this;

Im down   
sick once again  
hurt, shaking
why terrorize me
been down this path
many times before
I just wish
it could stop

all of these days
wonder what went wrong
still breathing barely
can't believe im down again

you have to go 
and I have to let you 
theres no other way 
please dont fight me 
like cancer in my heart
you're growing to fast
I have to cut the ribbon
fall down and die

its not okay
it never was
i cough my way
through all the pain
im not clean
not even close
sorry to say
it will kill me

Bad things rarely comes alone, no shit I say, just happened, I have a big choice now and I have no clue what to do, but enough about that, have to hold on with the writing tonight, I have some other things to take care of in a hurry.

Back in hell for two weeks of torture, see if I can stand it or if I'll break.